I'm not sure if any of my watchers will read this, but I feel like returning seven years after my last appearance here is something I should talk about.
I was a graduating schoolgirl when I wrote my previous post in this journal, and now I have my undergraduate degree and a couple years of working experience (not related to art at all though). Many things have changed since then: I moved to a different city, I met amazing people, I went abroad for short-term studies, I started visiting a therapist, I got a job, I quit a job, I failed to go to Japan as a research student due to the pandemic, and finally I have ended up in a totally unstable place as my whole country — Belarus — is currently fighting for its freedom. (Here you can find more info in different languages: https://www.voiceofbelarus.com/ )
All the experience was — and is — time-consuming, and even without drawing I rarely had an opportunity to sleep enough. Besides that, mentally I wasn't strong enough to create anything at all, and, frankly, I'm not even sure if I am now. The older I become, the stricter I am about the quality of things that I do or make. However, lately I feel like drawing can become what it used to be for me once again: a place to hide from the overwhelming reality, a place that could give me a chance to experience the feeling of "flow". I just hope I won't be too demanding of myself and I will learn to enjoy the process at my own pace.
Anyway, I want to try to do it again, although I won't be able to post very often. But I want to do it from the beginning, as a new, changed person, thus I've decided to create a new profile page: prynadd. If you are interested in my content, I would be glad to see you there as my watcher.
I also apologize to all the members of the groups I used to be the admin of. If anyone is interested in reviving them and becoming an administrator themselves, please contact me on my new profile (prynadd).
That's it! Thank you so much for reading this.